There are 2 major themes to this song, addiction and codependency, both of which go hand in hand and play a major role in my everyday life. Where does the line fall between love and enablement? How can you love and help someone who is seemingly incapable of loving and helping themselves? The first verse is about someone very near and dear to my heart who is continually fighting an uphill battle against herself and her own demons and trying to rebuild her life yet always seems to fall back on her vices and systematically drives me and everyone who cares for her away in the process. It is not her fault, she is an addict and is being pulled by indescribable, powerful forces back into the only life she knows, one of addiction and manipulation. Originally this verse was about an abusive relationship she continued to find herself in but I changed all the times I said "him" to "it" after discovering that her situation was less about abuse and more about manipulation. A black hole is so powerful that nothing can escape it, not even light, and to me is a fitting allegory to the feelings of being pulled time after time back into a life of addiction. I've seen myself lose all hope, all light, all joy and everything that makes me who I am to this microscopic black hole that addiction generates within. I have had the grave misfortune of watching it do the same thing to a woman I love more than anything over and over, while being unable to do anything to stop it no matter how hard I try. Once a person crosses the event horizon of this internal black hole, they are absorbed completely and just become a host for their disease. It is the most heartbreakingly tragic thing I have ever witnessed and I am very fortunate that I never made it across that line. The second verse is about how I continue to enable and do the same things over and over again expecting different results then am surprised when everything falls apart in front of me. The feelings of powerlessness and knowing that I would do absolutely anything to save her and yet knowing there is absolutely nothing I can do. She has to want to be saved, she has to be ready and although she has shown signs of that, they are only fleeting and just enough to pull me back into making the same mistakes again. Eventually, it will get me pulled back into that life and that black hole will absorb both of us unless I am strong enough to stay just beyond that gravitational pull and wait for her to reach out to me. If you or someone you love is dealing with addiction, please seek outside help while you still can. Know that you cannot face it alone and you must be willing to surrender to faith in something greater than you, even greater than the addiction itself. Contact a professional and seek out an AA or NA group near you, they have a solution.